I'm new here; but my story doesn't seem to really be much different than anyone elses suffering from the same thing. I get health anxiety over every little thing - I mean every. little. thing. I was recently treated for a staph infection (about a month ago) thanks to a professional tattoo still-gone-wrong which went away with the use of Cloxacillin; and now I am coming down with a sinus infection, thanks to the season change.
However - because of the shaking, the chills, the slight dizziness caused by a fever (which are all symptoms of anxiety, minus the fever, as well as symptoms of a sinus infection) - my brain has convinced me that the staph has returned and is going to kill me within 24 hours - even though the last one didn't. I have harmless heart palpitations thanks to anxiety - and every time I'm still convinced it's a heart attack, despite many tests on my heart that say I'm okay. I do have Generalized Anxiety Disorder as well, likely due to stress and automatic thoughts that have become habit.
My logic is still in place, but holds no value over my thoughts, feelings, or opinions about what I'm saying and that is the most frustrating thing. My brain knows it's probably nothing, but of course, as usual, "it feels different this time".
I'm at my wits end. I've considered going to a doctor for anxiety medication; however, medication itself gives me anxiety because of potential side effects and I am more sensitive to medication's side effects thanks to a concussion I sustained from recreational sports about a year ago (told this by a medical professional). So - I'm reluctant, and unlikely to be moved.
I'm more here just to try and find support and people who feel sort of the same and can understand, as my Mom (I'm 18 and live at home) doesn't know how to help or make it stop; my friends don't know about it and it'd be hard to tell them because none of them would understand; and the one person I did trust doesn't really seem to be around as much as they used to (personal reasons, prefer not to discuss this part). My mom has arthritis, fybromiyalga (sp?), asthma, a liver disease, diabeties/hypoglicemia among other things. Because of this, she is also on lots of legal medication given to her by her doctors. We agree this could be a potential reason for my constant worst-case thinking and scenarios that never actually seem to come though (luckily). Nonetheless - it's frustrating. I feel alone and despite my general happiness and confidence in every other aspect of my life; my constant anxiety and health anxiety is definitely getting in the way and ruining things; and is slowly just making me miserable. I was diagnosed with GAD at fifteen, and the health anxiety developed in the past year or so.
If anyone has any input, opinions, suggestions on coping or general advice I would really, really appreciate it. I realize my story is similar to many others, yet I find that maybe at least not feeling so alone in this after telling my story might at least let me find a little bit of comfort through the mess I'm in & thank you to any who take the time to read and/or reply. I really do appreciate it.