I've had INSANE symptoms off and on since 2002. I have seen neuros, rheumatologists, inters, you name it - through the years. They all say it's anxiety/depression.
Now...you were probably FINE befre you got your first symptoms, but once you started reading about your symptoms and saw the word MS on some paperwork...you have planted this idea in your head. It's what I've done as well.
Mine started actually in 1994 when I was dx w/ an eye condition called Pars Planitis. It is linked to MS in small percentages. But...any link to MS scares me. In 1994, I did not know what MS was. And we didn't have the internet to GOOGLE things (thank God!). But...when I was told about the MS being linked, I've never forgotten that. So when I started having physical symptoms in 2002, and started Googling, my life was consumed w/ worry...just as yours is.
Since the doctors did not have a good answer to my problems, it made me worry ever more. I was a complete WRECK! I hurt all over, my skin was burning, I cried a lot, I could not sleep, had horrible anxiety, got horrible depressed.....and I had that heaviness you are referring to. I would literally feel like I weighed a TON when I was just roll over in bed. I was positive I was dying. At this point, it was 2003/2004.
To get to the point, I was such a mess....I was barely functioning. My husband MADE me go to work...and I HAD to come home and cook and take care of my little boy (he's 15 now) so I could not stop living my life.
I ended up agreeing to get on Zoloft back in 2004 and all my symptoms went away within 2 weeks. I was my old self...but even better.
Fast forward to 2007....my husband left me for our next door neighbor. I was still on Zoloft at the time (I had taken it off and on for those past 3 yrs), but I ended up getting off of it about 2 mts after he left. I felt GREAT for almost 4 yrs when he upset me REALLY bad on Mother's Day 2011. All my symptoms came back. So, for over 2 yrs now, I am battling it all again. But I'm scared to get back on a med, so I've finally taken myself to a therapist. He dx me w/ PTSD (which I was pretty sure was my problem). I was really freaked out after 9/11. That was my first ever emotional breakdown. I could not eat, sleep, or function for 2 weeks after 9/11. Six months later is when my physical symptoms started. I remember reading about PTSD years later and putting 2 and 2 together. I was pretty sure that was why my problem was.
Once you have a bad trauma....in the future anytime something jolts you (slight traumas), your mind goes back into overdrive.
Right now....my entire body hurts. I won't give you details, because if you are like me, you will start feeling them as well. lol
The eyelid twitching is a CLASSIC anxiety/stress thing. Muscle twitches are totally anxiety related.
I get them when I get really nervous or upset. I think most people do.
You will get through this. I will say this....I am NOT big on meds, but...since you are going through a rough time right now...I would recommend going to your dr. ASAP and getting on a mild antidepressant/anxiety med.
My dr. explained to me the part of your brain that takes a hit when you have trauma. It kind of sounds to me like when you read "MS" on some paperwork and started reading stuff, that you kind of traumatized yourself.
The reason I did not get physically messed up when my husband left...was because I was on Zoloft at the time and it kept that chemical imbalance in check. Does this make sense?