I am back with more thoughts.
I have lived with anxiety for as long as I can remember. It hit a peak about three years ago, and I have been struggling to get a handle on things ever since. I feel pressure and overwhelming anxiety so much of the time, but there are a few things I try to keep in mind.
First, I am devoting myself to my children and husband. I have made it a mission to be the best I can be for them. It takes the focus off me and my problems, and my pains, and ME, ME, ME. When you care for another-whether it be a pet, volunteer work, or picking up trash in the park, you are living to make the world better for someone else.
I also do things to treat myself all the time. I love to take hot baths; I do that every day. I make sure to do things that I enjoy and plan things that I can look forward to. My daughter and I look forward to watching cooking shows on TV. We get through the day, finish homework, and have something special that we wind down with together. Little, special things are all that get me through some days.
You said you were unhappy since you moved to Canada. You are also having in-law problems. Those are two huge issues. What could you do about the things that are making you unhappy? Maybe deciding on a course of action will help you to feel more in control of your situation. Pick one issue and decide to concentrate on that one problem until you come to a resolution. And resolution may mean accepting you can't change it, but you will look at it differently and put it in perspective. You will find a way to make the best of a bad situation.
Talking to friends or family is also a good support. I talk to my sister when I need someone to listen. My husband cannot relate, so it is frustrating to talk to him; I avoid that.
Lastly, I give myself a break. I cry when I need to. If I explode with anger, I apologize and explain I am frustrated and feeling overwhelmed. It's not an excuse, but I have anxiety, and I am trying to do the best I can with what I have been dealt.
You are not alone.