I had a really big rabies scare a few months back in June. I petted a stray dog and was afraid that saliva somehow got under my nails. I never really got over this rabies thing and I struggle with it almost everyday.
Now I am convinced that I will get it anyway my mind will allow me to. For instance, any drop of water that I feel on me, even if it's me washing my hands and some water happens to ricochet onto my arm or face, I think a rabid bat drooled on me, and then I will be terrified of touching that area for days. Even though I look up and around after feeling the drop and there is nothing there, I still freak out thinking that it MUST be there somewhere, I just missed it or it's hiding. Even random scratches or red marks on my skin lead me to believe a bast scratched me, even thought my boyfriend tells me that he vividly remembers accidentally scratching me. Sometimes I even scratch myself and even though I am aware it was me, my anxiety tells me otherwise. I even hesitate on letting my dog outside because a rabid bat or raccoon might drool on him or attack him and I won't want to touch my dog. This is breaking me down.
I've been trying my best to get over this irrational fear, and I even proceed to go ahead and lick the area after it happens so I can "get over it". Sometimes that works, and other times I feel like I just screwed myself even deeper. It's even gotten to the point where I am afraid of going out at night because I feel like a rabid bat is going to fly over me and drool on me. I feel like I've become paranoid or that there is some invisible bat trying to get me. Funny thing is, where I live, I have never even seen a bat before.
I would really appreciate it if someone would help me rationalize this stupid fear of mine. If a bat REALLY did drool on me, I would have positively seen it, right? Can rabid bats even fly? I will be patiently waiting for an answer. I just want this to STOP. :'(