Hello! I'm glad to have finally found a good forum pertaining to anxiety.
I was diagnosed with manic depression when I was eleven years old. I used to attend weekly appointments to see a psychiatrist, but stopped going after I felt that it wasn't helping at all. Since then, I haven't undergone any form of treatment, which was a dumb decision on my part. It's been almost ten years, and my depression has recently caused me to develop terrible anxiety. I had my first panic attack in a movie theater November of last year, and I've been miserable ever since. I can't draw, write, or hang out with friends; things I used to enjoy. I'm slowly starting to drift away from my friends and family because they think I have nothing to do with them anymore. I live every waking moment of my life feeling as if I'm dying, and had to recently drop out of vocational school since I lacked the concentration and will to be able to pass the course I was taking.
Added to that, my anxiety has made me a severe hypochondriac. I have anxiety attacks if I catch the common cold, or if I feel the slightest stomach pains. Sometimes it gets so bad that I imagine I'm feeling pain when I'm really not. My worst fears are contracting staph infection, cancer, or sepsis. It's pathetic, really, but I honestly can't control my imagination when it goes off on its little tangents.
Recently, though, my doctor has forced me to go see a psychiatrist in concern for my well-being. I'm hoping that it'll be a more helpful experience in this day and age and that they can actually prescribe me on something, but for now, I'm looking forward to interacting with the people here who undoubtedly undergo some of the same issues. It's comforting to know that I'm not alone.
I look forward to speaking with you all soon.