My name is Andrew, I'm a 22 year old student finishing up my last year of college. This last year and a half has kind of been a blur for me. I have had a series of ups and downs and as I analyze my behaviors I begin to think I'm bipolar. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist but I need someone to talk to and can help me with my symptoms.
When I'm feeling good, I'm feeling great. I have a super high confidence level, I have all sorts of energy to do basically anything, I'm mr. social and it's always the time that I catch up with old friends as well as go out with my roommates here in school. My friends that I go out with here even notice it and they say like oh man you you were crazy last night. I also fall asleep regularly when I'm up and I feel great. If you talk to me when I'm up, I say nothing is wrong with me and I'm so optimistic for the future.
Right now, I'm in the dumps and I have been for the last 4-5 days. It usually gets triggered when I don't sleep well, but then it hards to shake out of. My sleep schedule sucks, I toss and turn for hours before falling asleep for maybe 3-4 hours, but when I wake up I feel like I didn't sleep at all. I have no desire to do anything productive and gets increasingly harder to get myself out of the house and moving. I don't like talking to people and when I do I feel like I'm faking it and not being my real self. I also have no appetite.
I feel trapped. I'm 22 years old and want to feel normal all the time and not be caught in this vicious cycle I've been stuck in for a while now. Does anyone have any advice or has anyone been through something similar? Like I said, I have my psych appointment this Thursday but would really like to talk to someone who can shed any light on what I'm going through.