I'm in the same stinkin--sinking----wow, what am I saying? I mean, I'm in the same boat, people! These past few weeks I've been getting up with a bit of anxiety in my system and the thought of doing something productive. Ok, do this, do that, have a bit of fun and end the day? Doesn't that sound simple? It is, but not for ME!
Despite a recent conviction and preaching to my brother ( who is a lazy lion all day round ) that acting on the moods isn't a good thing because you'll end up wasting the day, I still do that. I postpone productive stuff until I feel "in the mood to do it" ( that is, feeling eager to get that thing done and having a clear head ) and most of the time the day passes by without me doing anything. Worries take up the space for themselves, and I drift between tasks, biting small chunks of each and failing to conclude them. I'm dealing with creative hobbies mostly ( writing and drawing ) and there's a saying that tells us "if it doesn't work, don't force yourself through it". I agreed with that up to a point, but postponing morphed into fear and inability. Days passed by, the fear grew, and I felt stuck in a whirlwind of worries and powerless. Every day felt the same. I wasn't in the mood to do anything, and when I got working, anxiety would hit me in full force.
This lasted until I made a breakthrough last month. Nothing beats action. If we DO what we want instead of fretting over it, the worries and the thoughts are bound to vanish. Sometimes, at least.
Well, because this really jacks up my system, I will then begin to feel the old anxiety symptoms - a little light headed - a little off balance - and as soon as that happens then I will look at my mental list of things "still to do" and think the old familiar "Oh my God, I can't cope with this, it's too much" and because I've thought that BOOM I have activated that feeling of DOOM that you get when you think thoughts of that nature and BAM overwhelm-ment will hit me and finish me off.
So yeah I think I recognise what you are describing. I have come to realise that mine is all self-inflicted, and I'm currently working on fixing it
Whoa. Same here. Long story short, I've "survived" through my sister's wedding by focusing on the better things rather than the anxiety AND thinking rational thoughts. However, the day after has been a mess. I've woken up feeling rather sick and scared to my bones due to the upcoming festive meal. It was as if all the strength I've mustered before vanished. I felt powerless, and even though I self-talked myself and tried to summon positive courage and thoughts, it didn't come. I no longer had that energy in me.
Is it possible for willpower to diminish as such? This damn anxiety had me convinced yesterday there's nothing I can do except fretting over stupid things.