The real issue here is one of fear, all anxiety is fear in some form or another.
What's the cure for fear? - reason. Why? - because reason gives you the courage to take the next step and that is what you are struggling with now (and what most anxiety sufferers find themselves struggling with), you don't know which step to take. You have anxiety and have somehow come across medication as a possible cure/aid to recovery for that, yet somehow and from somewhere you have a fear of taking meds and so that is giving you a BIG dilemma. Meds or no meds
My advice is not one way or the other on that as only you can make that decision, but rather once you have made a decision then to stick to it and to see it through. I can't stress enough how important it is to make a commitment on our choices once we have made them as it is not just our choices that make us anxious, but also our lack of commitment to them afterwards.
So if you decide to go the Meds route then commit to the meds route, don't start wavering in a week or two because you still can't accept the idea you are on Meds, you must accept the idea from the start and see the Meds through as prescribed by the professional whom has prescribed them, doubt and fear will try to convince you that the meds are not working, "he's a rubbish professional", etc. but you have to get through that and let that go for the Meds to have any affect.
Alternatively if you choose not to go the Meds route then you must commit to the "NO MEDS FOR ME" decision and back it up by seeing it through no matter what you are feeling and fearing. Once again doubt and fear will try to sweep you away and convince you have made a mistake and "should have gone on the Meds!!!", but you mustn't waiver and must try to see the situation through.
When we make a decision we must stick to it as best we can, that doesn't mean that we can't change our decisions, but it does mean that we have to at least try to follow up our decisions with a bit of courage otherwise we just flap around struggling to make any decisions at all, because they all look like "scary" ones and so further anxiety and turmoil is caused because we waiver, either before the decision is made or after it and anxiety loves that. Anxiety will beat you up because you are trying to make a decision and then it will beat you up afterwards by telling you it was the WRONG decision - don't listen to it whatever path you choose BE DECISIVE and once you've chosen it commit to it wholeheartedly and don't allow fear to rule any further decisions you make - we should always strive to make reasonable decisions, not FEARFUL ones.