Some of the things you said really put it in perspective. The 'fight or flight' thing really makes sense. As far as getting outdoors, thing is I do go out a lot. I can go to Walmart or the mall and be perfectly fine. I have horses and I go out on 3 hour rides to the park and interact with people who come up and pet them. I just got home from yard-saling with my boyfriend. lol. And its like that, I am fine a lot of the time. I can go out and function normally... But then if I have a headache or an upset stomach or something, or a little dizziness I want to run home. This has been hard lately because I can't tolerate heat very well, and its been around 100, and being out with the horses is tough. I have to keep my hair wet and can't do too much or I'll feel sick from the heat, and want to run home.
I went to a horse show 3 weeks ago, was showing my horse. I don't have issues with being in front of people and judges like that, but when I had to canter (slow gallop) my horse around the arena, I felt a little sick to my stomach (had just eaten) and I nearly panicked! I wouldn't go into the next show for fear of vomiting on my horse's neck. lol. not to mention in front of everybody.
But I also get these attacks... I don't want to call them panic attacks, and I'm unsure if they're related to my anxiety, but here's what happens.....
Randomly, out of the blue.. I can be sitting on my couch relaxed, nothing wrong in the world, and suddenly my head feels weird, I get really really hot, dizzy, and I feel like I need to use the bathroom really urgently. Its hard to walk, my vision goes in and out being dark, I get very nauseous and dry heave. All the while being really weak and barely making it to the bathroom, where I lay down on the floor or throw myself (fully clothed because I'm too weak to undress) into the bathtub and run COLD water. On average, 45 minutes later I'm fine, just a little worn out. I spoke with my Dr. about this, and he thought maybe hypoglycemia? But we're unsure. So since then, when I feel it coming on, I eat a spoon of sugar. So far its mostly warded it off and kept it from becoming a bad attack, but is it in my mind? See this is where I'm unsure. I know sometimes my anxiety makes me believe something is physically wrong, but I wonder if this actually is hypoglycemia or what? THIS issue, is one that REALLY REALLY makes me not want to leave, for fear of it happening in public and I'd drop to the floor of the grocery store or something and vomit, and they'd call an ambulance and it would just be a fiasco.
Have you ever heard of this happening?
Like I said, I still go out... But if I feel the slightest bit ill in any way, I won't.