On monday, I had an headache that lasted for a little while and then went on its own. Later on though, I noticed that every time I squinted, I would feel a dull ache behind my left eye. On the same left eye, the upper eyelid has been constantly twitching for the past month at least. The dull ache went behind the eye but the headache came back. I have had the headache since then everyday all day. It is not at all bad in the morning; it feels completely eased off in the morning but slowly gets worse until the afternoon where it reaches its peak until the next morning. It is a dull ache and sometimes it feels like it is at the back of my head but I am sure it is the frontal lobe where I feel the pain. My neck and temples don't feel tender at all.
I have been to the doc and he had checked my eyes and asked me a few questions. He told me that there is no evidence of a brain tumour but I am not convinced at all. He said that if there were pressure in my skull, this would show in the back of my eye (I can't remember the technical terminology). I have read that people diagnosed with a brain tumour never felt any symptoms for years.
I am sure that when I look in the mirror, one pupil (the left) looks slightly larger than the other but the doc never mentioned anything of that.
I do have weird feelings in my cheeks near the nose and on my forehead which I know indicates it is probably a sinus thing. However, I have had sinus headaches and it doesn't feel anything like that. I am sure it is not a sinus headache. Paracetamol doesn't work.
Why would it last this long? Why does it ease off when I lie down?
I am convinced it is a brain tumour and this will only progressively get worse each and everyday. I have been in tears and it is not only tiresome for me, but also my family. I feel so stupid when I cry because I am a 21 year old male and I sometimes think, "it is just an headache... it will go if you stop worrying" but this only lasts temporarily... my tumour fears comes straight back. I usually think "just because a brain tumour is rare, this doesn't mean this is not one" or "it is obviously something bad because it is still persisting after medication and for all this time". I have been worried about various things in the past - none of which turned out to be bad. However, once again, I just think, "Just because I was wrong in the past, doesn't mean I am wrong now".
My Dad says to not worry but this feels impossible. Now and then, throughout the day, I can think to myself, "it is not that bad and it is more likely stress & anxiety" but like I previously said, this doesn't last that all long.