This is my first post on this site , but I have for sure read many posts on here in the past few months . I have always been a worrier , as long as I can remember. But not this severe . When I was a child I would always worry about cancer. Why , I don't know ? It would always be in the back of my mind but never really impacted me as a person and my daily life. I was getting headaches when I was 16 years old. Convinced myself I had a brain tumor. Finally worked up the nerve to go to emergency and they explaIned I was having tension headaches .... I asked for a cat scan. They told me I didn't need one. Headaches went away after that. Fast forward. I am now 28 years old. Blessed with a beautiful 4 year old and an amazing fiancÚ. Back in may I started to get a dull ache on my left side that would come and go ... Then I noticed I could hear gurgles from my stomach that I couldn't hear before. Of course. I jumped on google and the results of my search were Colon cancer, ovarian cancer and stomach cancer. Well this sent me into a tail spin because I then realized my bowel movements have been " off" since winter .. I never paid much attention but I did realize I wasn't being satisfied after I used the bathroom. Off to the emergency room I went. They did blood work and a quick er ultrasound and told me I was fine. I didn't accept that because my symptoms continued. It's now 4 months later and nothing is any better. Only Way worse. I have been to the emergency room 6 times. To my family doctor so many times I cannot count. He has ordered me an ultrasound of my abdomen and pelvis but I have to wait until late October for that and a colonoscopy but not until November. I have been put on anxiety medication they help with the anxitey a little but it doesn't take the horrible thoughts of dying and being told I have cancer leaving my family behind away !! I cry everyday I feel sick everyday and I feel like I am not being taken seriously. I now believe cancer is spreading throughout my body
My symptoms as of today are
Dull left side abdominal pain. Not dibiliatiing
Sharp stinging pain throughout my tummy and down low abdomen
I can hear all day long crazy gurgles from all over my belly
Trapped gas ( I know this because I could always pass gas normally )
My bowel movements are loose some days. Not diarrhea and it never feels like I am finished
My bowel movements are smaller in width and length not pencil thin but def skinnier then they should be
I noticed 2 days ago an indent all down the side of my stool. Straight to doctor. He examined me and said I have an internal hemroid. I know I have 2 external.
I have muscle twitches everyday ... Arms. Face. Back and belly. My calves are the worst. It's like they are bubbling
scares me so much
I recently noticed my bones are cracking I can hear them and feel them. Especially my shoulder blades.right arm and my ankles. So annoying. No pain associated with the cracking. And popping.
Im not hungry like I used to be. I don't get full quickly. I just feel like my appetite is not the same. I have lost 5 lbs since the beginning of August.
No blood in my stool
I have to pee a lot. Which was always normal for me I think ?
Blue dot in my vision throughout the day ...
Low back pain
I feel tired and sad all the time.
I'm at my witts end. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm constantly worried and scared I'm dying. Any words of advice would be appriciated.