My anxiety is taking over my life.
Recently, i have been worrying about leukemia. I had a friend who foundd out he had it not too long ago, so that's where it's coming from. He had no idea that he had it. He started getting random bruises, headaches, and had blood blisters in his mouth. As for me, i have been getting tons and tons of bruises lately, and have absolutely no idea where they came from. I have always bruised super easily, but i still usually remember getting them. I have woken up the past few days with an awful headache, and have felt extremely nauseaus. (No, not pregnant). So random bruising that appear all over from who knows what, terrible headaches, nausea, and occasional night sweats. Along with dizzyness. I don't have insurance, so i can't go to a dr to get checked out (like i want). My health anxiety is so bad right now. All i want to do is go to a dr and get bloodwork and everything else done to know that i am okay. But i can't. I try talking to my fiance about this stuff but he just doesn't get it. He says "you have bruised easily since i have known you. (True), you always have gotten headaches (true), you get night sweats bc we live in the valley in ca (also couldbe true), and you're dizzy from the headache or not eating, and nauseaus from the headache or the stress in ur life right now." (We just finished a move, i'm in school, my fiance is struggling to find a new job after his company filed chapter 11, and in 6 weeks we're going back to chicago (where we're from), and are getting married. I also don't have any family here, and still
Haven't met any friends. So it still gets depressing at times to just feel like it's just him
And i. So anyways, this is what's going on. I am really looking for some support or help, becase i really just dont know what to do anymore. My head is pounding, which means i am going to take another excedrin, which i don't like doing because i feel like it is just covering up whatever hidden illness i have.