Hi all. I've always been a "worrier," as long as I can remember I typically tend to worry about something or another. Sometimes it's something as small as my to-do list, sometimes it's "oh my god I'm not getting into grad school/this job/etc," and when I was younger I had a lot of "oh my god I'm going to die some day" type episodes.
In the last year, especially the last six months, my worrying has progressed to pretty much all of the classical symptoms of GAD. I haven't seen someone about it just because I'm poor, but it's fairly obvious to me that I have general anxiety and once in a while if I don't catch myself, will have a full blow panic attack.
It's funny, but getting a new boyfriend is what made me realize I had a problem and I wasn't just imagining things. I'd been single for a while and whenever I would get worked up I'd just suffer and not tell anyone, but then I started dating this new guy suddenly my anxiety was affecting someone else - when I get worked up, he notices, and he is very good at "grounding" most of my general worries. I had a particularly bad episode while driving a month or so ago, it was a 5 hour drive, and about an hour in I felt like I couldn't get enough air, I was twitchy, I was so nervous and worked up and had this urge to just spin my steering wheel while going 80mph on the highway. I pulled over and called my boyfriend until I was calm enough to drive...and then I ended up having to be on the phone with him for another hour while driving until I felt okay enough to finish the entire drive home.
Anyway since I've started admitting that my occasional "episodes" are more than just my imagination I've gotten better at controlling them.
This isn't really an advice thread but if anyone is reading this and gets similar episodes I do where you get worked up and suddenly you feel like you aren't getting enough air, or everything feels tingly/weird or you feel faint, then the best way I've found to control them at home is this laying down with my legs up in the air against a wall. Basically in a "sitting" position, but laying down. Taking some nice slow belly breaths and counting for a while and I feel almost 100% normal. The only times this doesn't work is if I'm really just beyond the point of no return. And this doesn't work in public sadly, but I've found that counting my steps or tapping my fingers and counting as I do tends to help settle any annoying thoughts.
Anyway...this has been a long intro post. I finally decided to make an account because I swear every time I get in crazy Google mode and read all these horrible things about how I might be dying from this or that (I'm a bit of a terminal illness hypochondriac), without a doubt I will find a thread from THIS forum that brings me back to reality. Found one today on brain tumors and I decided this was a community that has helped me a few times without even being a member, may as well join it.
So thanks for all the help in the past so far and looking forward to the future :)