I don't just focus on symptoms but psychiatry does. I guess you can say I worry more when I am more depressed. With that being said, i read something online about Dysthymic Disorder superimposed by Clinical Depression aka Double Depression. Double Depression is a severe condition and reading up on things on the internet is a fuel in the Hypochondria World.
I just want to get things under control, and I think I may be neglecting the idea that it's possible I have anxiety problems apart from Severe Depression. It's so hard to pinpoint a diagnosis. There were times when I felt like labels were bad for people because it could restrict people's beliefs in themselves; that they can overcome things. But I do think a diagnosis is a real entity. I think labels are real based on criteria.
One individual on here proposed the idea that I might have Post Traumatic Stress from not getting over anxiety in my childhood. I think that is a load of bull. I'm trying to figure out a playbook for myself. Silver Linings Playbook comes to my mind when I think of the goal in Psychiatry. The ultimate goal is wellness and maintenance of sicknesses. I am sick of feeling powerless to overcome my problems. I definitely need a therapist; without a shadow of a doubt. It's crucial. Good psychiatrists will implore you to get therapy. My problems have caught up with me and have disabled me in the past. If it weren't for Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors, I wouldn't have been able to do anything the way I do them now. They are a breakthrough but psychiatry has a long way to go. The side effects and long term effects are the things the public bombard us with when we choose the medication treatment.
I am kind of upset that psychotropic meds do have the potential to cause damages. But it seems that the benefits of medication therapy outweighs the problems they can cause. I hope Lexapro continues to serve me well. I have yet to be in therapy since starting Lexapro in April. So that is probably confirming the truth: Medication works with therapy. Without therapy, medication stabilizes me. Medication treats severe symptoms and ultimately gets rid of the worst of it. So I am thankful for that. It's time to get my life on track, whether it's anxiety, bad memories from my childhood, social anxiety, depression...whatever it may be that is holding me back...there is a silver lining for me.