Since I had a dizzy spell in march 2012 my life has gone down hill. I have been experiencing constant off balance, on a boat type feelings since then.
Also lately, over the past few months I've been getting headaches and nausea too. I also have no energy and just feel tense and stiff all over.
I have no one else to turn to. I'm at the doctors at least once a fortnight, and they never find anything seriously wrong.
My family don't care, and I hardly have any friends left.
I try so hard, I go to college, I exercise, drink plenty of water, try to keep busy, but I still feel horrible.
And on top of all this my mind is extremely messed up and I get DP and DR. Ive been on lexapro now for two months and not much has changed...the only thing that helps a little is when I take benzo, but I don't like to take them everyday.
I'm really depressed, i'm loosing motivation to keep on fighting. I'm 20, I should be out working, moving forward in life, instead I feel as if I am trapped in an elderly body. I'm a burden and a let down to my family. They are always talking and admiring my sister and her achievements, while I sit there wishing they would be proud of me too. The sad thing is, I am proud of myself, I never knew how strong I was until I had to face all of this. I fight battles no one knows about, and instead my family see me as weak, and quite frankly pathetic.
I wish I could see some progress, I pray every day that god will guide me and things will for into place, but as the months go by, I am still stuck in this dark situation and can't seem to get out of it.
Just needed to let it out, I truly have no where else to turn to.