It's been a couple days since a pustule on the top of my back broke open... these usually go away within a couple days, leaving only a tiny red spot.
I try covering these with bandaids... yesterday when I removed the bandaid it looked like it had been bleeding a little, that it was starting to scab over.
Today (around nine hours ago) I tried removing the bandage and for some reason it bled a LOT.... on the bandage this time it looked like there was pus. I've no other symptoms of infection, no redness, no pain (at the time of this writing), but I'm not sure how to treat this one. I quickly used an alcohol wipe to try to clean it and catch some of the blood, then I stepped in the shower and washed it out with some hot water, and I noticed when the area dried it already looked like the spot at the top was coagulating/scabbing.
It looked ugly, the damaged skin looked grey (the area is about the size of a dime)
When I got out of the shower I covered it with an antibacterial bandage and left it alone. I'm not sure what it looks like right now, but this is how I remember it.
For those who read my last thread (http://www.anxietyzone.com/index.php/topic,75241.0.html
), I bought some new salicylic acid treatments just to use as a topical.
My next dermatologist appointment isn't until January, as he said the minocycline treatment is working as it should.
If this spot isn't infected, why is it so stubborn? Why did it start bleeding so much when I was *so* gentle in removing the bandage?
It wasn't bleeding by the time I got out of the shower.
Anyway, I'm terrified. There's almost a pinching sensation right now where the spot is. Not painful. Comes about every five minutes.
I've had this phobia for well over a year now, and I've had some nasty spots before that healed... but I'm just so worried about this one.
Any advice on what to do? Should I try to wash it again? Should I just leave the bandage on?
It just doesn't make sense.
On a conscious level, I realize I have about the same likelihood of getting this flesh eating thing as winning the lottery. But people do win the lottery, and people do die from this. Who's to say that I won't?
I have so many broken spots from my acne, and my skin is so, so damaged.
I mean, you read articles like this...http://www.thirdage.com/health-wellness/aimee-copelands-battle-with-necrotizing-fasciitishttp://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2002/09/19/48hours/main522536.shtml
It's just fuel for the health anxietic. I'm really trying my best to clean each spot, but I've been getting really weird pustules... I haven't seen my doctor lately, but they were much worse a year ago and she didn't seem concerned.
I tend to catastrophize (yep, that's a word) the tiny amount of pain I do get... I always think it could lead to something worse.
This just isn't okay anymore. I'm in good health otherwise, I guess. Mild anemia. Kind of an insomniac (this has a lot to do with that...)
My diet isn't that great, and to add to this, I'm 17 years old and living alone. So it's not like I can just call over my dad it talk about this.
Don't know what the point is in writing this.
To vent, I guess?
Do I feel like I need reassurance? No, because the symptoms would be obvious.
Has anyone in the world ever gotten this from acne? http://www.reddit.com/r/IAmA/comments/r7hd5/i_had_a_dermoid_cyst_take_over_my_right_ovary_got/
This girl, apparently.
I guess I just need to be told why I won't get this.
Because it really feels like I will...