Anxiety has been hitting me hard for the last 18 months or so. My 12 yr old daughter has a significant mood disorder, and for the last 2 years that has led to her violently attacking my wife and I. We've had to call the police on her, and she has had multiple inpatient hospital stays in the local psych ward. It's a wild ride that never seems to stop. At the same time, my parents have both developed dementia, and I've had to institutionalize them.
As all of this has occurred, I have developed a real anxiety problem. I'm seeing a therapist, and that is helping some. But all he seems to have to offer are relaxation techniques that require a certain amount of sanity to even attempt. They work well for the moderate, near-constant anxiety, but when things really hit the fan with my daughter or parents, I still feel helpless. For example, a few days ago, my daughter had a violent episode which we were able to handle without police or medical assistance, but for the next 6 hours I had a series of crippling panic attacks. Just wave after wave after wave with small breaks in between. The relaxation techniques were useless against what was going on in my body.
Until recently, I have refused medication (other than buspar which I've taken for 6+ months). My therapist has suggested valium or ativan, but I wasn't ready to go there. Now I amů mostly because I just cannot manage my life with these panic attacks. So I called my primary doc as my therapist recommended and was turned down flat. I then made an appointment with a psychiatrist in my therapist's group and I have to wait until the end of November. That seems like an eternity for me right now, as every day I withdraw more and more from my family and each week I end up missing time at work.
I'd really like some feedback right now. If you were in my shoes, what would you do to try to cope for the next 3 months while you wait to see the doc? Is there something I should be doing that I am not doing? And in the long run, is there a light at the end of the tunnel, or am I just expecting too much from anxiety treatment? I really feel like I am going to end up losing my family if I can't get a handle on myself, because right now I just hide from them a lot of the time. Thanks for reading.