Hello, glad to have found this place. I am a 47 y M suffering from (probably) a major depressive episode. I was always ALWAYS a consummately happy-go-lucky child and young man who began to suffer from very mild melancholia at age 20/21. I didn't even know it at the time but now that I look back on it it seems clear that my mental health status changed around then. It's no surprise, since I have what appears to me to be a strong family history. I coped fairly to very well, eventually became a physician and married a great woman. We have three children and what I consider to be a strong relationship and family life.
In 2005, I developed my first major depressive episode which to me seemed related to ramping up of stress surrounding my job as a clinical pathologist and income issues surrounding it. I was treated by a local psychiatrist with a nice combination of talking and 20 mg/day of citalopram. It made a huge HUGE dramatic difference in the quality of my life and ushered in the best period of serenity and experience since I was a teen. One thing that helped me- and I know it can sound ridiculous to those of you reading this who aren't as oriented this way- is that I was financially not only secure but made very large amounts of money. This kind of situation is, of course, too rare but it allows one a degree of security that allows for financial stress to dissipate completely.
Fast forward to around 2011 and my job stress went up due to income decreases and worries about that. After having 'dealt' with it for a couple of years, mainly by subjugating the worry, my depression broke through about 3 months ago and is variably severe (waxes and wanes depending on the day or moment). It's tough to communicate it effectively, since I'm probably doing objectively financially than 99% of the population, but I feel huge stress over bills/finances now and it seems to have become a negative obsession, bleeding into every aspect of my life.
Glad to be here.