It's my first post on this site......I have self diagnosed myself with
GAD. I was googling for something and information about GAD came up on
the NHS website and the description just made sense to me and all
sounded so normal to me.
I have always been a worrier but this year, the worrying has just gone
to the extreme. Work has been very stressful with lots of pressure and
at first I thought it was just down to that and it would get better
when more staff start. This is true & it has got better, but only
I tend to think there is something wrong with something I have done at
work and check it, double check it, get my boyfriend to check it - and
repeat the process over and over. It's like I just can't get it out of
my head. I try not to think about it/tell my boyfriend but the thought
is still there in my head.
The thoughts are generally work related. As mentioned I thought it was
just a temporary thing and put it down to the fact I cared to much
about my work and wanted to do it to my best.
I don't like feeling like this as realise its affecting my life (and
my boyfriends) but I really don't know how to stop, it's like a part
of me. It makes me upset that I can't just be normal and enjoy my life
like others my age.
I've mentioned bits of how I feel to my mum (who I am close to) but I
don't think she knows the extent if my worrying. Both her & my
boyfriend have suggested I go to the doctors but I just know what I
would say and I don't really want to. I haven't told my best friend,
she knows I have been stressed but not sure she realises all this. I
don't see her often so would have to tell her on the phone, again
quite hard. My boyfriend is really supportive but when he's not around
I struggle and think even more. He is away lots in the next month and
I'm already wondering how I will cope on my own - who will I ask to
I thought recently things have got better, but then something will
just happen to put a spanner in the works then this had my thoughts
for a while. I don't know why the obsession starts with that
particular thing, it just does and always seems to be just before the
weekend so I spend the weekend worrying! In the last few weeks I have
had a couple of spells of a few days where things have felt normal and
I have felt a lot happier but there is still something in my mind/head
not sure what but its like I can't relax/need something to think
I think that's briefly described how I feel. I would appreciate any
advice from anyone on how to cope with this.