I have yet another ailment that I'm concerned about. For the past 3 nights I haven't been getting the greatest amount of sleep. The first night I got about 6.5 hours of sleep, the second night I got about the same, maybe 6, and last night was a bit different. I tried falling asleep at around 10:30, but couldn't fall asleep until around 11:00. But what happened was when I guess I fell asleep, I looked at the clock and it was suddenly midnight. Like I don't know if I slept or not, but I got up and went to the bathroom, and then went back to sleep and got up at 5:00.
Now my concern is that this will only get worse and worse until I can't sleep again. I have had this fear for almost 2 years now...and the last time I had this concern was about 5 months ago and hasn't come back until now. I am dreading tonight to come, because I'm worried about not sleeping. And what was scary to me, was that I wasn't super tired when I woke up this morning. I mean I was tired, but not really tired...like I got enough sleep, but I only got 6 hours...maybe 5 if that 1 hour I wasn't really sleeping. The last time this happened I would get up every single hour on the hour and I would have terrible night sweats, and some of the worst anxiety I've ever had.
It scares me because Sporadic Fatal Insomnia is a NON-Inherited form of fatal insomnia...it's not Fatal Familial Insomnia. That scares me because it could happen at any moment.
Could I have thought about this disease so much that I now have it? It worries me because it's in the brain, and maybe my brain caused it to happen, since it is not a well known disease. Someone help me...I'm only 20 years old and feel like my life is spinning out of control. I know this sounds stupid but it really scares me.