Hi everyone I've been following this site for a little bit now and have posted here and there. However, recently through some different circumstances I really need help. I've seen 4-5 different therapists while struggling with my issues. The doctors have all seem to come to the conclusion that I suffer from GAD and OCD. My mind always struggles with different thoughts starting with what if I fall into the sky or being afraid to leave too far from home. I've suffered intrusive violent thoughts against my loved ones and self harm intrusive thoughts. Physically my eyes always feel tired, tension headaches strike hard, fluttering heart, hot flashes, feelings of derealization and doubt. It's been terrible and as much as it helps to hear people say they suffer the same things I'm at a point where I need further help. My current but possibly ex-doctor if you would haha has tried a few different medications but I never stuck with them due to my anxiety increasing. She seemed to get angry with me and my therapist never seemed to focus on getting my issues sorted out. Well I got to the point where I need to see some improvements and didnt feel it was a right fit. I found a doctor who specializes in OCD and started seeing her. I need help with these terrible intrusive thoughts. They hit me right when I'm in a daze from waking up and keep me kinda on edge all day. I can't stop thinking about them and know others don't think like this. It gives me brain fog and I feel like depression is creeping in. Well through all this after 3 years my girlfriend decided to end the relationship... She was going into her 2nd year of college and told me she wanted me to have time to figure my stuff out. I really hope she was being genuine. My new doctor said she thought I should try maybe Zoloft or Luvox but the psychiatrist can't see me until the end of September. I know it won't cure me or happen right away but I want to find something to help! I take one klonopin .5 at night but I know I need something more long term. I don't know if I should go back to the one doctor and ask for a prescription of something? I'm just lost, confused, emotionally hurt and want to see a road of improvements. It's been over a year now that these symptoms have been affecting my life. I'm not sure if anyone can help I just need to figure out my next step and if I'll ever be okay again. This is no way to live forever. Thanks everyone!