I've had mild HA my whole life, but it's generally been easy enough to control. If I can find non-scary potential causes for a symptom, or if a doctor checks me out and doesn't find anything, I'm generally back to normal right away. But a couple of months ago I had a scare and had to wait 6 weeks to see the doctor, and that gave the anxiety time to blow up into the worst I've ever experienced. It was horrific.
But I finally got to see the doctor, she said things were fine....except my blood pressure was high. So the main anxiety trigger was gone, and I felt way better, but I still felt a lot of the physiological anxiety symptoms lingering on. And it was 2 weeks from then to my BP appointment, so there was time to build up some worry about that, too. To make things even worse, I had spent time here getting help for the first anxiety flare during all the n fowleri threads, so when I breathed shower water up my nose the day after my first appointment I had *that* fear to contend with as well. *sigh*
So.....I kept feeling head symptoms before the BP appointment, that could have been BP and could have been anxiety. And the BP was really crazy high, too, which gave me something else to be anxious about. I went to that appointment, and the doctor put me on a medicine to lower it, but I don't think it's helping much yet. They said it may take a week or two. My numbers have been coming up between 168/94 and 190/108 when I check at home. I go back to see the doctor again this Friday for my first followup. In the meantime, I'm having headaches (which could be my normal ones, or could be the BP, or could be the meds), and my head is feeling really cloudy and heavy off and on (which could be the BP, or could be the meds). And I keep feeling worried about my BP, even though I know worrying isn't going to do anything but make it higher. But it's so hard not to when my head is hurting or feeling foggy. It's like a constant reminder.
On top of that, I'm trying to move and walk and exercise more like the doctor told me to do, but as I do it, I start to worry that the exercise might raise my blood pressure up into the crisis range (because it's so close to it when I'm resting), so even that is difficult for me to do without adding to the anxiety.
And the final straw....I've always had a little trouble taking some pills. I stopped taking vitamins years ago because I would often get them stuck. I've switched to the gummy kind. But here in the last couple of months I've gotten two little ibuprofen tablets stuck, and the fiber from a stuffed grape leaf, all in the same spot. And then on Monday, I got the blood pressure pill stuck in that spot. It said to take it on an empty stomach, 1 hour before eating, so I didn't want to immediately chase it with anything other than water. After an hour had passed I tried a breakfast bar, and then I ate a full lunch later, but it never felt like it was gone. I stopped by the clinic to ask them what to do a little before closing time & they said try peanut butter and hot liquid, and when I did that after work it finally felt like it was gone. I've successfully taken the pill the last two mornings, but today I took an ibuprofen and felt as if it got stuck on the other side. I know that it may have just scraped the edge a little and felt like it and wasn't really stuck, and I know Monday's pill was likely already down at least after lunch, if not before, and was just irritated and swollen, but it still felt there and I couldn't stop myself from worrying about it. And I know that my anxiety and worry is probably constricting my throat as I'm about to take pills and making all of this more likely, but I can't figure out how to counteract that. And I'm still feeling things in my throat, which are probably just globs of sinus drainage, but they keep that worry fresh and present. I guess I can ask my doctor about all of this on Friday and see if she wants to send me to an ENT or something, but I really want that problem to be already gone. I don't need an extra dose of anxiety every morning when I take my pill.
I bought a couple of books (Mind over Mood, Feeling Good) and they look like they've got good info, but they're going to take a long time to get through. I really wish I could flip a switch and instantly have all the anxiety parts go away. After all, the day my friend told me about her friend's cancer it flipped on like a switch. It's just no fair I can't turn it off just as quickly.
Does anyone have any quick acting techniques to start to lower the physiological and hormonal anxiety parts? Breathing exercises aren't doing it for me, and AWARE is less helpful now that my BP is a factor. Stories and advice for pills and blood pressure and such are also welcome. Thank you!