Not sure if any of you remember me, but I posted here a little over a year ago during a really tough time and found you quite helpful.
Lately, I've found myself slipping back into my old ways... so it might be good to give a little update.
I have terrible acne.
It covers my face, back and chest... cysts, boils, pustules, whatever.
I used to pick heavily but stopped once I researched the infections it could cause (not to mention the scarring)
What stood out the most from my research was a little nightmare called 'necrotizing fasciitis", aka: the flesh eating disease.
I couldn't sleep anymore because any little pain I felt from my spots, I was convinced it would lead to something terrible...
This was a year ago.
Without going into too much detail, I'll just say that I found the help that I needed at the time and took a little vacation.
Since that time, I've kept my phobia mostly under control through help from the mental health team at my hospital, my family doctor, and my dermatologist.
It's always at the back of my mind. My skin is constantly broken due to my acne... I try to treat it as best as I can, with antibiotic ointment, alcohol pads and band-aids. But today has been awful. I'm breaking out everywhere. No pain, at least not yet. A couple big pockets on my chin and cheeks... (as I typed this, I actually just broke one pimple behind my ear by accident. I scratched a little, then noticed pus on my finger. Now blood. GREAT.)
A few raised spots on my neck, and there a couple of really tiny spots on my back that look like they've been bleeding. Still, no pain.
I'm very worried that I'm overusing neosporin. It's just a part of my cleaning habit. Alcohol, ointment, bandaid... but it does say not to use it for more than 7 days unless directed by a doctor. I asked my doctor about this and said, "each spot, just use neosporin. it should be fine."
But, daily? For a year? I feel like I've really built up some resistance. I even forgot to mention that I've been on minocycline since may of last year (which, lately, i've only been getting 4 out of 7 does a week. long story.)
Last year I felt like, whether it's flesh eating disease, mrsa, or sepsis, or some unholy combination of all three... It'll get me eventually. That feeling hasn't changed. I'm sitting here, shivering, panicking that I just touched a spot behind my ear with unwashed hands and made it bleed.
I have all of these new spots on my back, neck, and chest... about 8 in total, I guess? Maybe a little more? Is this just a bad breakout, am I overreacting? I'm scared, you guys. I'll be turning 18 next month and this isn't really how I'd like to start my life as an adult. I really felt like this was in the past.
Anyway. I'm sorry for rambling, and I apologize for any weird errors as I shot this out in about five minutes while panicking and wiping my ear with an alcohol pad. Do I have any reason to worry about any of these? I've never even had a skin infection before. I rarely get sick, it's been years since I last threw up, and I can't remember my last flu. But it's gotten to the point where I can't sleep anymore because I'm constantly trying to clean any broken area.
tldr: main points:
major skin infection phobia.
at a loss.
feel like he'll die from this.
- does acne put you at risk for these kinds of infections?
- am i overusing neosporin? i usually use it with every broken area, sometimes up to five times a day. every day.
- does my overuse of neosporin put me at risk for infection? what should i do instead to clean my spots to protect myself?
- does it sound like i have staph? where are these new spots coming from?
just to be clear, i plan on checking with my doctor about all of this but i just need to be able to sleep for tonight.
health anxiety is an awful beast... really hope all of you are doing well. or at least better than me.
edit: also, if anyone would like me to expand on anything, i'd be glad to.
reading this over made me laugh. s'all over the place.