My aches and pains are slowly getting better, to the point where they are alllllmost non existent (almost not completely) yippee! I really feel as though I'm getting myself together. I still have bad days, but most days I can handle feeling off, I guess it's my new normal. It's just been happening for so long now that I can convince myself I'm not going to immediately die (most days). I can't even remember the last time I've googled my symptoms. My brain can still remember things from my previous googling sessions though, and will remind me of things I don't want to know every now and then.
The thing that is still bothering me are these damn heart palpitations. Can they really be benign and just start occurring out of the blue? It's great that my aches and pains are getting better, and I'm so happy about that, but the little annoying negative voice in my head sometimes tells me that the aches and pains are gone, and now I'm getting these heart palps because my blockage or heart defect is just changing and advancing. That doesn't even sound logical when I type it out, but it can be hard to think that everything's totally fine when a vital organ is flipping and flopping and pounding for a good portion of the day every day. I know a ton of you guys get them, how do you convince yourself they're benign?
I've told this new doctor at the meet and greet about it, and she didn't even comment on it, maybe just because it was a meet and greet. I just feel like if she thought I was in immediate danger she probably wouldn't have let me leave. I have a physical in a couple weeks and I'll bring it up again during it.
I'll end on some other good news... I haven't needed lorezepam in 9 days! (Since my meet and greet)