So - I had to do my annual blood on Monday. I am completely out of my mind thinking I am going to get "a call of doom". I have been stressed out. I explained to the woman who took my blood that I have HA and was wondering when to receive results. She said "we don't call about results". I said, "ok so no news is good news". She then fed right into my anxiety and let out a huge sigh then proceeded to explain that I could be called for any abnormality (have that be HIV - my fear - or low iron). So she said a call could be good or bad.
GREAT! I am already stressed then this woman who is annoyed with my honesty is being snippy. Great! HA in full swing.
BTW - I did request an HIV test as well as regular blood work per the request of my therapist. we have been working on my HA for several months. This is the final step to help me remove my HIV HA fear. It took a lot of courage to get to this point but I am determined to squash all fear and doubt.
I am having HIV fears (I posted earlier this year) from open mouth kissing incidents (with canker sores) during a very low point in my life. I prefer not to go into detail on that but I have not been sexually active nor have I engaged in any other behavior (besides the kissing) since my last test in June 2012.
I am falling apart. everytime the phone rings, I start to cry. I see my therapist tomorrow which is great. I am hoping that anything BAD will come to my attention in the next 24-48 hours. I mean, I realize they are not going to hold my blood for a long time and my dr appointment is next month.
stressed. need encouragement. just need friends to help.