Hi everyone! I'm new to this forum and I could use a little help right now. This post will be long so please bear with me.
After years and years of struggling with depression and ineffective verbal therapy (ranging from CBT to psychodrama and NLP), I finally decided to give medication a try, as I'd never taken meds before and I was very against the idea.
I was put on Prozac 20mg, to be taken once a day. Today is my 6th day. Depression-wise, I feel better than I've felt in years, and this is no understatement as just two weeks ago I couldn't even see a point to getting out of bed. However, I find that as a weird side effect, Prozac is bringing back all my childhood terrors... and these give me really really bad anxiety.
As a kid I was always afraid of hurting other people, and I'd have these intrusive thoughts, like "What if I killed mum and dad?" Mind you these thoughts always horrified me and I would've never, ever acted on it, but the thoughts were so vivid and graphic they were very distressing. At some point during my childhood they went away, but now - as of two days ago - they're back and in full force.
I have these images of me hurting or killing my loved ones, and it's very graphic and very disturbing. I know I would never act on it, God forbid, so why do I think about it? The more I try to push these thoughts away and distract myself, the more they keep nagging at my mind to the point where I've asked my husband to hide all the knives in the house because seeing them distresses me. It's making me feel really anxious and nauseous.
Did anyone have to deal with this after going on Prozac, or another medication? Will this go away? Please help me :/
(Ah also, I'm not in any form of verbal therapy anymore.)