Thanks tmgmom for the reply, and I'm sorry for taking so long to get back to you. It's been a hectic first week here in the USA.
Unfortunately, my breathing hasn't changed much, but I have developed congestion and some other cold like symptoms.
Thank you for your kind words, and encouragement, it really means a lot.
Unfortunately I'm really not in a good place at the moment. I'm starting to feel really quite ill, along with the breathing and all the previous symptoms I mentioned at the start of this thread, I know have something painful happening to a lymph node on the back of my neck. This, coupled with the breathing has me convinced that this is carcinoid and it's getting worse. I saw a doctor earlier who says they are convinced its a chest infection, but this is NOT what it feels like at all. I've also been trying to ignore this acid stomach problem I've had since August and convinced myself it was anxiety. Unfortunately I have to face the fact that I have all the symptoms of a stomach ulcer and this is yet ANOTHER major pointer to carcinoid. These attacks that I mentioned in the first post are word perfect descriptions of a carcinoid crisis and I can literally tick off almost every single reported symptom of carcinoid. Two GPs back home have told me I don't have it. My urine test came back negative. But I know that is not nearly enough to rule this disease out. My family are so supportive but are utterly convinced that this is my hypochondria gone wild. It's like boy cried wolf, as I've been awful with hypochondria for years. Now that something real is happening, they think it's the same as before. I cannot see a single way that this is not carcinoid syndrome. It's getting to the stage where for it to be something else I would have to be suffering from about a dozen different conditions, rather than just the one that explains them all. It's a very rare condition but I really feel I am one of the unlucky ones.
I have an ultrasound of my liver booked for Thursday. If that shows up any abnormality then I will have to start trying to figure out how to leave the job and go home. If I have liver blemishes then it's almost certain, from what I've read, that coupled with my symptoms, I have metastatic carcinoid syndrome and it's in a bad way. I can't justify being out here away from those I love, if I really am getting seriously ill. I would need to see them, show them how much I care, and try to get treatment back in the UK.
I can't believe I'm in this situation, and it's breaking my heart. I'm lost and scared and I just know there's something wrong. The next 4 months were set to be the best of my life - my marriage to the girl of my dreams, a great job, a new home, and some fantastic travelling. And yet here I am, fairly certain that things are about to turn really sour, just before it's all set to get really amazing.
I'm so sad and so scared. I keep thinking of every time I've ever hurt someone I care about or said something wrong, I just want to see them all and tell them I love them, and spend as much time with them as I can.
I'm sorry to be so morbid and depressing. But it's unfortunately the way I feel. I've never felt this low before.