I'm a full time college student, and a full time groomer. I am in a relationship of 5 1/2years
About 2 years ago I was diagnosed with having symptoms from a few different disorders. Generalized anxiety disorder, dysthymia disorder, and adult add.
They started putting me on different add meds thinking it was the add. I wasn't and still am not too fond of the medication route. My mom has horrible problems from using medication. I don't want to end up like her.
but nonetheless they decided the add meds were not working and thought about putting me on antidepressants. So I got scared and canceled all of my future appts thinking i could somehow manage it by myself. Well after a while I started exercising, eating healthy etc. and it helped, but not fully.
Now 2 years later...I'm getting closer to the end of college. Exercise has been something that I can't fit into my schedule anymore, though I try...and same with eating healthy...I try but it's hard. I find myself having my anxiety problems getting more irritating.
Now here's the thing. I know I was diagnosed with the symptoms 2 years ago but I'm not sure if these feelings are GAD. I made an appt with the same Psych as I had 2 years ago, but he can't see me until mid-septmember. So I'm trying to see if I should still keep the appt. or if I'm just thinking too hard about my feelings. I am open to using the meds now if it will help.
Here is a list of the things I think are related to my GAD...if I do have it:
*I don't like when arguments or debates get heated
*nervouseness when there is a chance that something goes wrong
*anxiety especially with homework. I feel like there is just not enough time to do it
...in fact there is not enough time in the day to do a lot of things.
Homework, family, etc etc.
*So I tend to procrastinate on things...because life can be a bit too overwhelming.
*being intimate, I always try to avoid it. like the plague. I enjoy it but even then, sometimes I wonder things like do I look stupid while this is happening, will i get pregnant(i use birthcontrol), or will i get caught by a sister or even worse a parent(im 24). or even weirder things.
*I have serious self esteem issues with my school work(people say im doing well but that doesn't make me feel better), so that makes me worry about getting a job
*I feel like I won't be able to get a job in my field,and it scares me that I'll be just graduating and then off to get my masters which will be more loans, and then what if i can't get a job to pay it off?
*I also get annoyed easily. like seriously aggravated...and then it bugs me for a while.
*I don't like when things change abruptly.
*I don't like choosing. im indecisive.
....not to mention when i do get anxiety or irritated, im like that for at the least, a day. sometimes days.
though I have no problem sleeping at night. not at all.
Does this sound relevant? or does it just sound like I'm over-thinking this?