I have been dealing with anxiety for the past 6 months. I have had every symptom you can think of; irrational fears, fast heart beat, hyperventilation, 2 panic attacks, nervous energy, no sleep, too much sleep, derealization/depersonaliztion. My latest fear is the fact that I have forgotten what normal even feels like. I dont struggle so much with the physical symptoms of anxiety and I am even pretty good at calming down when I feel and attack coming on but the derealization is unbearable. I'm so used to being in it that it feels like the new norm. Everything I look at seems strange or off even when I know its perfectly normal. I question everything right down to cultural norms. Like I live in South GA and its pretty common to see people wear boots and drive jacked up trucks and listen to country music. I liked all of those things! That is until I started questioning there relevance. For instance here are some questions I ask myself "Why do people listen to country music. Why do some people like country and others like rap. Why do humans like music. What is music. Why do we enjoy it. Why do people drive trucks. Why do people drive. How do cars work." And those thoughts go on in my head all day until I get a headache which usually happens at about 4:00 pm everyday. I guess thats my brain's threshhold
Lastly, I cant seem to keep interest in anything. If I'm not thinking about something then my mind wonders into panicky thoughts so I try to keep my mind on something which is good in the way that I;m not thinking about anxiety but bad because I burn myself out by thinking too much. I digress, I cant seem to keep an interest in any one thing. Its especially bad because Im engaged and some days Im madly in love with my fiance and others I feel blah. Two days ago I got a 97 GMC Sierra 2500 for free. My object is to restore it and make it a good daily driver and mud bogger. This morning it was all I could think about. Now Im feeling disinterested, I dont know if its because I overthink things until Im bored with them or if my anxiety is causing this. Thanks for listening guys.