2sungo, I also teach - college level- and I'm doing ok this time around with my students. Feel better once I start talking and the class goes by quick.
However, I know what you mean about the medication kind of working. The first couple weeks I hit a point where I felt as if I were "cured". Now the generalized anxiety is creeping back in and the tension is coming back into the pit of my guts. My stress level is the same or less, meh. Oh well, you're right about one thing, at least the panic attacks are stopped. As days go by I think about them less and fear them less and less because I know that even if a bear attacks me I won't be panicking.
Its understandable about dropping the Lex dosage, but perhaps if you can handle a dose in excess of the recommended dosage, like Insights has talked about his own experience, you may find some more relief? When it came out, Lex was given up to 40mg, or so I think. I know for a while I was on 25mg.
It makes you wonder, is this all we can ask for from western medicine? After 3 years and countless therapists I found CBT and talk therapy nearly useless to make real changes. This month marks 5 years of working with MDs with medications, and the best I've felt was a 3 month period where my work and running were going great and I was off meds. The Anafranil made me feel human for a while, like I did before I realized I had an anxiety disorder and would worry about real things and not my anxiety disorder, but seems like its effects are diminishing as I get more used to it. Maybe I ought to bump the dose... Really disappointed in this 5-mthf, actually, I'm feeling MORE depressed if anything.