I find it terribly uncomfortable to maintain eye contact when speaking with people. It restrict me in that I don't go out much at all, and I simply cannot work. I avoid all social gatherings and at 45, I'm starting to become aware of a lot of lost opportunities.
It's worse when I'm the listener, because when I'm not talking (active), when I'm listening (passive), I'm not in control of the situation. I have to sit there, looking at the person's eyes, and it's terrible.
I'm seeing a therapist and it's going well, if very slowly. Some days I feel I can conquer it, some days I feel totally hammered by it.
I start over analysing things, like; do I look at the left or right eye, what about both? Do I blink now or later?
The fear is that they'll notice and say something along the lines of 'You are weird', or 'You creep me out with the way you look at me'.
Anyone else get this, any advice?