I have to say this.. I believe in God and his son Jesus Christ and that Jesus died on the cross for me and those that believe and even for those that don't..
I also believe in Heaven and Hell and if I don't pull my head out of my own rear and start being a better person I wont be in Heaven with my loved ones.. so that is my goal to change me and not try and change others..
I believe in Forgiveness which is very hard to do but when we Forgive it is also about Us being forgiven and acknowledging we did wrong.. I am wrong a lot!! I say sorry for everything even when I don't need to say sorry it is a habit but maybe all this time I was suppose to say sorry I don't know.. We also need to know when to say I am sorry please forgive but also know we can not please everyone and surrounding ourselves by people who never admit they do wrong or hurt people nor want to acknowledge they are in the wrong sometimes it is best to walk away and love them from a distance and drop all the pain at the foot of the Cross ..
I do know also many are afraid of death I am not afraid of death because once you are dead it is done and where ever you believe or whatever you believe in is pretty much done because your life is over but I fear suffering and the pain the illnesses the medicine the bad news also seeing loved ones being so ill and then passing away..
Life sure isn't easy is it and very hard to understand.. I don't push religion on anyone because I don't want anyone pushing anything on me..
Me being Ocd I expect a lot I can see me going to Heaven and saying well God those pearly gates need shined they aren't so pearly or if I go to Hell saying Satan its to hot down here and if you don't turn the heat down I am gonna bust your nose ..yes I am one to argue lol so I am gonna lose either way ... but I do want to go to Heaven and I pray God forgives me and accepts me.. I would like to talk too Jesus really bad and I am sure at one point and time he would say Mona you talk way to much!! lol.. He knows me already though..
If it were true and it may be but if I come back as anything I would want to be like my granny she was a quiet person who never judged anyone or never argued and could cook the best noodles and yeast rolls.. she loved her family .
As I am writing this I am thinking of my own Mom who has terminal cancer and Praying for a Miracle and wondering what will I do without my best friend and who will I call 3 times a day or more I didn't get to spend a lot of time with my mom growing up and even in adulthood because of many things but I forgive her and I will be beside her or her beside me maybe when we leave this Earth and know that no matter what LOVE will always LIVE.. I want to be in Heaven with her and she with me... okay I am done..