The thing with my GAD etc. is I KNOW it is like my glands/chemistry etc. is "off"
I tried anti depressants.... for three months SOOOOO many bad side effects with VERY little positive effect, if any.
I am using Ativan/Lorazepam... almost daily. It helps some. However, it makes me drowsy a bit sometimes and affects my memory some.
It is just... I get these moments where some part of me is in terror...
This is NOT a thought induced thing! However, negative thoughts and fear emotions and depressive emotions can follow.. be "attached" etc.
I do believe I am better than I was at my worst.
It is just... I know that my system was under stress and trauma for WAY TOO LONG and sort of "broke"
Like cortisol over production etc.
Doctors don't seem to know much about what to do.
I can be good moments and have some bad ones... emotions and terror triggered etc.
I KNOW it is because something kind of "broke"
Yes, the morning can be the worst, a good deal of the time (like the cortisol levels in a body is highest then)
I know to pay attention to eating and getting sleep etc. as it makes things worse when I don't
I don't want any more drugs etc. I REALLY don't think it FIXES ANYTHING!! Just trys to address a symptom or two.
I think they are more poison to the body than anything!! Do you see those commercials? Like, for joint pain, as an example!
Ummm it MIGHT help your joint pain... however... it could cause cancer, heart attacks, nausea, memory loss, alzheimers.... etc etc
I think it is more like... this is a poison... chemical... however,, we found a possible side effect of helping joint pain!
Anyway... the Ativan helps me some.
And I do NOT begrudge anyone who uses any med that they feel helps them! Because this stuff is HELLLLLLLLLL and any alleviation is some solstice!
I know my system was put out of whack due to stress, trauma, and the subsequent panic and negative stuff flowing toooo much in my system\
Any help or thoughts???