Hi Leelee. Just wanted to say that I have the sore under arms as well. Mainly my right. I have found it's somehow connected to my bra. If I wear a sports bra for a few days the pain will lighten up. I also have my husband feel under my arms for any lumps because I'm too scared. I know how you feel at night time and upon waking (if I even ever go to sleep). It's dreadful. I got to the point of wanting to end it all because this is no way to live. I don't know if you're on meds but I just got moved to a new SSRI four weeks ago and a daily benzo due to what a mess I have become. Not sure if it's going to help yet. My boys and husband need me. I've been trying to get it together but it's grueling. In addition to the meds, I got a new therapist that specializes in anxiety, I'm seeing a CranioSacral therapist next week, and just started reading a couple of books. Plus I've been to my doctor, a neurologist, an energy healer, an east/west doctor and will be seeing a neuromuscular dentist next week for what I've been told is TMJ (head and neck pain). I'm also calling my gyn too because there must be hormone issue going here as well. See... told ya I'm a mess! Haven't had blood work done since last Summer so that's weighing me as well.
I wish I could give you advice that would take this away. I can only say that you can focus on a clear mammo and good blood work. Say it over and over in times of anxiety. I repeat a mantra (a couple actually) over and over and over until I feel some relief. Also, one of the books I'm reading is called Embracing Uncertainty. One piece of advice in there is that you must develop a "bring it on" attitude. I know that's one of the biggest issues with HA - we think we can't handle anything. We don't believe in ourselves. We also don't have faith in our bodies abilities. I am at fault for feeling all of these things. But what if I just say screw it and say bring it on? Why not choose that powerful feeling over the weak feeling? My husband tells me I need to fake it til I make it. He says everyone has to. I believe him. He's a stage 4 cancer survivor, he knows what he's talking about. But meanwhile here I sit... on Anxiety Zone, fearful of touching my neck because I just know there is something bad there because I feel pain; not wanting to look at my hands because the "stress" rash has come back; listening to my kids play and asking myself to snap out of it and go play with them. It sucks. And not sleeping makes it even harder to snap out of it. Hugs to you, Leelee. Try to have faith in your body. Bodies are naturally healthy, it's a fact (at least that's what my husband tells me, lol). Please try and focus on your fantastic recent results. And repeat it to yourself a million times if you need to, I promise, it does help even if only for a little while.