I thought I was the only one!!!

[VixenCs]

So, hi everyone, new here. So happy I found this site! Every since my son was born I have felt like something is wrong with me. It started with panic attacks.
Now it has lead to me asking my fiance every night if I am ok. I try to stop myself but I can't. If I get a pain somewhere I freak out. I have even went to have a mri of my brain for fear of cancer or something. I don't know how to keep living like this because I am driving my fiance crazy always asking him if he thinks I am ok. I wasn't like this when we first got together. Well, it is good to know I have somewhere to vent now.


                                                                    Tasha  :)

[Cindyp]

Welcome (((((VixenCs))))).

No, you are not alone at all. Many of us here and elsewhere are affected by this. Like you, I wake up each morning and it is'nt too long after I rub the sleep from my eyes before I'm fretting over some sensation or another and wondering if I might have some horrible undiagnosed disease.

A few days ago I developed a pretty nasty cold sore on the inside of my cheek on the upper left side. It's on my gum though. It hurts a lot and at first I did'nt think much of it but lately I have been thinking about mouth cancer and picture it spreading into my brain or something .

You said that you were not "like this" when you first met. That fits me too because I used to be "normal" and this has slowly creeped up on me gradually and from what the doctors have told me, that's the way it works which is why treatment is nessessary. Are you getting any sort of treatment?.

Anyway, glad you are here and we are all here to support you!

[VixenCs]

No treatment so far, cannot afford it. I have actually been on paxil. Bad idea for me. I went down to 107 lbs. My dostor just recently put me on zoloft. Another no no. Gave me the shakes so bad I couldn't stand it!  So I have just decided to try and ignore all the things that go on in my mind but I am afraid it will all catch up with me one day. I dunno. I was fine before I had my son, after I had him I worry about everything now! Think I just want to be with him as long as I can. 

[LifeToStressful]

I know it's kind of a late reply, but congratulations on the new born.  My wife and I have been trying to have kids for a few years now, but no success.  And as for asking if your Ok, I do the same thing to my wife, and it's always the same reply, Yes!!!!  As I've heard from other couples/friends of ours who have kids, it can be pretty stressful, but i think that if you and your fiance work together at it, you guys will raise a pretty good family.

Good luck with the new born, and agian, congratulations!!!

[katu]

So good to know that there are others out there who know what it is like to be trapped in the nightmare of health anxiety. My family are so supportive but i know they cannot truly understand why I am like I am. Worried a bit at the moment cos my mum is ill, and I so often ring her when I am panicing about whatever, that I am worried that it is me who has made her ill from worrying about me. Phew that was complicated!There is an underlying issue here - my gran died of cancer about two years ago and she had a hyperchondriac husband who she was always worried about. Im convinced that it was this constant worry that contributed to her dying so premeturely (67). i am worried that I will do the same to my mum so I need to get better, as it is affecting the peoiple I love. Not just my mum but my boyfriend, sister, dad etc. Any one nelse have this problem? Also, any one else fall prey to the evils of googling symptoms? Had a bad panic attack this morning cos I was convinced I had leukemia, and or a brain tumour, cos I googled. i know a lot of people will just say 'well dont do it then!' but it is more complicated than that for me. I dont want to do it but I cant help it all the same. Anyway Im babbling. :-\

[just_messed_up]

Hi all.  I'm SHOCKED!!   

I am JUST LIKE ALL OF YOU!  I ask my husband over and over to check my blood pressure.  If it's a touch over 120/80 I panic, if it's a touch under that, I Panic!  I GOOGLE all the time.  I look up heart disease because it's something my family suffers from. I have acid reflux and every time I have any trouble with it, I am googling for answers.  When I find something I like, I keep looking and find things that worry me.  I look at the veins on my legs and am afraid that something is wrong with them. I am only 32 yrs old.  I have looked at my ankles in fear that one is smaller than the other. 

a while back, I had a small vein rupture in my eye.  The doctor said it was fine, just something from coughing or sneezing and isn't symptomatic.  It was for me.  I was a nervous wreck for 2 weeks thinking my eyes either had cancer or were going to explode. 

My husband is really tired of checking my blood pressure all the time, he is tired of checking my pulse, he is tired of me always asking if he thinks I'm ok.  It's driving both of us mad.  I can't afford to see a doctor right now.  I am sure with support I can overcome this.  I do realize that it is a disorder and THAT helps me to sorta chill'out about it sometimes.

[AirJ23]

Hi guys new here, always makes me feel better to no that im not alone. Dont know how this started, 1 day i was a care free teen, next day i find myself completley worried, it started early this year with had hip pain, i go on the net, type symptoms and think i have kidney disease, i was miserable for months convinced i had this despite good urine/blood tests, wat bugs me is i actually had the symptoms i read...eventually it goes away but then soon after it was colon cancer, had the symptoms for this 2, got tests done, goes away...now its a brain tumor, this one is the worst (has lasted many months) as the symptoms i get are exactley as there described...very frustrating, im constantly preoccupied with my health at school and work and im only 18...what a horrible feeling. These worried feelings come when my symptoms are present, sometimes the symptoms go away for days/week, and i feel a little better, then they come right back and i feel miserable again...i have spent this whole year worried, sometimes im CONVINCED i have something, like a brain tumor, i get headaches and think "mabe its nothing" then another symptom comes and i panic and feel trapped and helpless...been to the doctors like 10 times last few months but he says im fine, sometimes i feel he ignores my present symptoms based on the past ones...thanks for listening guys, big help, any feedback would be great, feel better ppl

[lacyrose81]

It is good to know that I'm not alone.  Sometimes people who are close to me...my husband, my mom, my dad, my best friends, they seem to ignore me when I complain of something.  I mean, I'll be genuinely concerned.  Like tonight, I have pains all over the left side of my body....I wonder if it could be something serious, like pad or something of the like, and I get these head shakes and sighs.  I hate not being taken seriously, but I know it must be exhausting dealing with this severe anxiety I have.

It doesn't help that I'm overweight and really need to lose weight to have better health. 

[Jay]

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i have gone for a million different kinds of tests.. and still none of them will convince me that there is nothing wroung.. i have 3 cat scans in the past 3 months and every single one have come back negative.. but still i refuse to belive it.. i am driving every one crazy with my constant fear of seriouse lillnesses.. i will stay up to all hours of the night because i truly belive im going to die.. i dont no what do any.. i am constatly sick to mystomach and i can never eat.. because i am always worrying..... ?? what to do an7y suggestions

[mikeeg]

i feel the same guys!!

[mikeeg]

youre not the only one! i would not worry about it were all goign to be fine!

[mikeeg]

you have to relax and dont do it!