Im so sorry I have taken time to get back to you. I have been having alot of doctors appointments and tests, all genuine, lol.
I have been diagnosed with sleep apnea, I have got low cortisol, so had a test for that today, yesterday I went to see a proffessor of ENT and had an MRI which showed a large cyst in my left cheek sinus.
So as you can imagine my anxiety has been pretty bad!
I just wanted to say, that although my anxiety has been bad, it has been manageable and no where near as bad as it was in the begining.
I think this is because you learn and grow with time, and because I have picked up techniques along the way.
If you are happy to read, I suggest you try 'At Last A Life' by Paul David he has a website: http://www.anxietynomore.co.uk/
His advice and experience is so powerful as he has been through what we are and has come out the other side! If you cant afford the book, im sure you might know other means of downloading it?? :)
Also the Charles Linden method is really good too, he tells his story and he had it really bad but again is well!
If you google him and also look on youtube, he is all over the place, has helped celebraties as well.
I know you said you have had pills thrown at you and told it will go away in time, that is ok, but if you find ways of comforting yourself in the mean time as well as the pills, this will help you get through.
I know it sounds silly to some, but meditation and visulisation really do work. I had to visualise so hard for my MRI, so that i didnt have a panic attack, it took all my strength, but i did it!
To go to sleep at night i find visulisations on youtube to listen to through my headphones and before i knnow it im asleep, or i listen to soft piano music (my thing is drum and bass, but for some reason piano music really helps me!!!).
The best advice I can give to you is dont fight it, dont fight your fear. I know it is as scary as hell when panic starts, but try and relax into it, imagine yourself floating (fantastic author Claire Weekes). It really does work, it takes practice, but if you just accept that you have these strange scary feelings and that you are just going to go with it, before long you will find yoursel calming down. A panic attack actually peaks at two minutes althoug it seems longer, it just the after afects of the adreanaline we feel or another panic attack!
Lastly breathing exercises have worked wonders for me! If you start to feel yourself panic relax your shoulders, blow out a deep breath then breath in and out through your nose, but when you breath in, breath from you abdomen, put your fingers across with the tips touching, when you breath out they should pull apart, when you breath in they will touch back together again. Breath in slowly for the count of 3 then slowly out for 6 if you can, it will calm you down.
I hope this all makes sense and some of it may help. Let me know how you get on.