My father is Bi-Polar. He is NOT normal at all.
On Monday night I got into a really bad car accident. I'm lucky to be alive. But my father only cared about the car and how are insurance will go up. He didn't even ask if I was ok until 4 hours after the crash.
Today I went to the dentist and found out I have 2 cavities between 2 teeth so it's technically 4 teeth and I need my wisdom teeth out. He just screamed at me about it.
My mother is upset about everything and is just constantly reminding me about how I'm 20 pounds over weight, how I don't look good, how I keep messing up.
It's just so hard to want to continue when every morning I wake up feeling so worthless.
Sleep is the only comfort I seem to have. No one hates me in my dreams. I'm taking sleep aids every night to try and sleep. But I'm getting less and less. I just also am losing m appetite... maybe it's from depression maybe I'm just trying to eat less to lose weight.
I'm working 3 jobs to try and help pay for the car and the teeth but after the summer I will be out of money and I don't know how I will support myself during the college school year. I'm taking 18 credit hours and have so little time as it is, I don't know if I can get a job on top of it.
Everything just keeps happening and I don't know how to cheer myself up. Each day is worse and worse. I don't want to leave bed, I don't want to eat..... I don't want to be home. I feel so worthless and I'm so lost. I have no idea what to do.