I think you see your life for good due to your injury. Been the type of person that you might be, you want to work. You don't want to have sit around the house all day. You want to be out earning. Now, next time you talk to your doctor, ask him what other types of jobs are out there that you can do. I am sure there are other types of work. That don't involve any tricky leg movement at all. That is something to look in to. You are simply a proud man. And the thought of not working is getting you down. Look for other options.