background: 25, been an avid weight lifter for ten years. Used to be a fat kid. Turned into a muscular man, but never really did much cardio. Never noticed my heart going up, but it usually always was. Also, usually always over trained, tired, and made my way through the day with a large amount of caffeine. 3 or 4 pills a day. No problems.
Back in January I had what seemed to be a panic attack. Heart racing and would not slow down. Trouble breathing. No chest pain. Extreme anxiety and fear. This happened after walking up and down some stairs at work. Granted stairs were never my friend, but I never had anything like this. I remember not being able to sit down, just pacing back and forth, almost at a run. Now I know that if it really was a heart attack, I probably wouldn't have been able to do that. Anyway, a few hours later I did get it to calm down, went home, and thought I'd sleep it off and take it easy the rest of the week.
Well, the feeling of anxiety and panic and high heart racing never really went away. I struggled through life. I stopped exercising. Work suffered. Really though I was dying, that my heart was messed up. Three weeks later I went to the ER, they took an ECG, and sent me home. Over the next month I went twice more, they took x rays, they took more ecg's, and they said I was fine, and that I had anxiety.
Went to a doctors office for the first time in ten years, they took blood as a baseline, and said I was completely fine. This lasted for about a day or so. After that I was still in fear. By this point I had lost my job, lost my muscle, and was really messed up. I spent most days in bed. My doctor wouldn't do any more tests on me, said I was healthy as could be, and that frustrated me. I just could not accept the diagnosis.
This all happened five months ago. A couple weeks ago, I read on here that you have to accept the diagnosis. I tried that, and bought some sam e, and tried my hardest to believe that its all in my head. I can now say that I truly believe that a lot of my symptoms are caused by this. The nausea. Dizzyness. Random palps. Even the chest and back pain, which I had every day for five months. The Sam e really helped, basically overnight. Still didn't feel like myself, but I thought I could get better with time.
Yesterday was supposed to be my return to the gym. I was going to go back and work hard, at about 75% intensity, and not worry about my heart rate. I had been doing stuff off and on over the past five months, chin ups mostly, but I was out of shape. At the gym yesterday I did good, was stronger than I thought, and was doing good. I sat down to do bench presses. I did a set of 18 reps, put the bar down, and then it hit me again. Heart rate went out of control into the 150's, which is normal, but it would not go down. I have a heart rate watch, and I kept checking it. It would stick in the 150's. I sat down, I stood up, nothing helped. Nausea at this point in time as well. Well, needless to say it bothered me. I got it to go down to 117 sitting down, but as soon as I got up it was back to the 140's. It was tough to walk. I debated asking the front desk for an ambulance or trying to drive there myself. The reason I didn't want to drive there myself was because to get to my car I would have to climb stairs, and it was hot outside and I had no ac. I did get my heart rate down while walking to about 120 or so, about 20 minutes later, and set off for the ten minute drive to the ER.
During the drive my heart rate stayed in the 130 range. When I got to the ER, there were a ton of people there. I told them what was going on, but also that I was 25 and that they should take care of the other people first. I started to calm down because at least I was in the ER, and if I would collapse at least I'd get some help. I sat down there for probably a half hour and my heart rate did slow to 78. I felt stupid for being there.
When I finally got seen, I had pretty much chalked it up to a panic attack, but I still got the ecg and x rays, and of course they were normal. The doctor didn't chalk it up to anxiety this time, since I was exercising, and said it might have been SVT. I did some reading on it and it seems like not only could it have been that, but the original "anxiety attack' that happened five months ago. The only way to find out would be to get a holter monitor, but I'm going to have to fight the doctor to get one. Today, I'm scared to even move in case it happens again.
I just needed to tell someone all this, and I hope I can get better and possibly become a helpful member of this community. I know how bad anxiety is and all I want to do is help people through it, any way I can. I just have to get myself better.