Hi everyone,
I'm pretty sure I have SAD but sometimes I seem fairly normal. I have a regular job which I go to everyday without much anxiety, talk on the phone several times a day. I don't interact with people much though, because I am a one-person office within a larger office of people who work for a different company. I've been feeling very lonely and isolated lately and I think I'm getting depressed. I can still get through my daily activities and I'm ok M-F but I dread the weekends because I feel trapped at home, I don't have any friends and nowhere to go. I've always been "shy" but had a few close friends growing up and don't remember being unhappy, except in high school. But in college I didn't make any friends and basically just went to class and then went home. I so regret not having the real college experience. I came from a pretty normal family I think so I don't think my problem stems from that. Over the years I've managed to make a few friends at work (when I worked in a larger office). I do have typical symptons of SAD - blushing, nervous around people, afraid I'm being scrutinized. It's so embarassing to have this problem and to not have any friends or a life. I'm married but I would like to have some girlfriends to hang out with. My husband has his bar buddies but I would like some real friends. I spend my weekends in front of the t.v. and think about how pathetic my life is. I lost a lot of weight last year and stupidly thought that would give me self confidence and change my life. I'm still glad I did it but it's not as great as I thought it would be. Sorry for the long posting but it feels good to get this off my chest. Thanks everyone for listening :)
PL
