It's been quite a while since my last post; things had been going really well for me the past few months. That is until about Monday evening when I started experiencing an odd feeling that just progressively has gotten worse since. I noticed at work that anytime I stood up I would experience a head rush sensation, which a lot of us have endured in our lifetime I am sure. It felt like all the blood was rushing to my head and I would have this pulsing type sensation, my hearing would kind of go along with the pulsing. It was never painful, I never felt faint, my vision never went dark. I felt fine overall. The second thing I noticed from this was that it felt like I would become short of breath upon standing as well, but never any other time (unless I'm exerting myself) The feeling is hard to describe because it's not like I am out of breath and am struggling for air, it's more like that feeling you get in your chest when you've exerted yourself. Very difficult to describe into words; I can still breathe normally and fine but feel like I am out of breath at the same time?
Of course after noticing this my brain was on high alert, completely fixated on the sensation now. There was no turning back perse, I was completely consumed by it and my anxiety took a hold of it, too. Long story short is that everytime I stand up now can be the brink of a panic attack. I"ve had to literally go through motions anytime before I stand up and say "OK, I'm getting up slowly now and know that I might get anxious, so slow down and let it pass before you do so" It's gotten that bad.
The reason this bothers me so much is because I am young, do have mild hypertension which my doctor monitors and I take a beta blocker for every day. Last time I was at his office it was 145/85 or so? I have total white coat as well, and that's actually a good reading for me. He wasn't worried and scheduled me in for my next routine 3 month appointment. I am also overweight, which I am working on.
Sadly I have Googled my symptoms and nothing really screams out "you're in big trouble" but obviously doesn't make me feel any better about it. If I take my time from sitting to standing, while taking slow breaths, it never happens, and if it does it's just a mild sensation in my head just dulled way down. It's also worth mentioning that there has been instances where I'll stand up without pre-freaking out about it (as we know, we stand up a lot as humans, it's second nature) and I have caught myself because none of the above has happened, but on the flip side, I'll stand up without thinking and notice the same symptoms do happen. So I am left confused, and freaked out.
Has my anxiety manifested itself into this new monster of mine, or is it actually something going on with me? I know we're not doctors, I am simply looking for some insight as I am pretty terrified, everytime I move or stand up is like provoking a panic attack.