So I've always had wavering cycles of anxiety and depression, but I notice that it has been getting much worse. I get bouts of intense anxiety and irritable moods/frustration more often these days, and it usually happens at night. I can give examples of what has lately either been bugging me or triggering a heap of weird emotions:
1. I am constantly worried about me and my family's health. Often I have racing thoughts and have morbid scenarios running through my mind about bad "what if" situations. These emotions come in bouts, sometimes they are awful, other times, I just forget about it.
2. I get frustrated with people easily. I don't have a support group outside my family. Many of my friends use me, the organizations/clubs I am at in school are full of people who are not interested which leaves me to do most of the work. I think even the one person I can call a friend-my roommate, is being a bit more distant with me. I don't think she is doing it on purpose, but it makes me feel very lonely + isolated.
3. I have these triggers that make me obsess about things to the point that I stop thinking about the things I truly need to focus on, like homework for example. For example, I just spent 2 hours looking at various studies on different diets & lifestyles (ex: veganism, non-veganism, etc.) wondering if either one is right for me or not, and just been building this frustration on how hard and difficult it is to maintain a truly healthy lifestyle (though I eat fairly healthy now). I told myself to stop and study, but I just couldn't: I needed to search the internet and find answers even though deep in my mind I know there is not a one-size-fits-all answer. This is not the first time this has happened to me. Oftentimes, I will look up a certain topic such as nutrition and religion and will obsessively search the net for answers to questions that usually have mixed answers.
4. I have more and more racing thoughts. Sometimes I wonder if this is near a panic attack. I don't think I have had a full blown panic attack, but before I go to bed, I worry a lot before I sleep, to the point that I get palpitations.
Do any of these happen to any of you? I don't think it is that time of the month for me, but I have had worse and worse PMS symptoms over the course of the past couple of months.
The only changes in my life has been far more isolation from people, less opportunities for me to make friends, etc.
Any insight is appreciated.