i dont know where to start,the beginning would require a novel so i will just jump in to where i am at the moment.....
after years and years of suffering silently(most of the time),i knew just before xmas last year i needed help,i mean really needed helped.I was surviving on average with 8 hrs sleep a week and was very depressed.So after seeing my doctor,i fear medical professionals and was why its taken me 20 years to get help,he put me onto mirtrazapine for sleep...well 3 days i got 3 hrs sleep but decided to stick with them for a while longer but after 6 headaches and restless legs at night i stopped and went back....with much advice i was prescribed 10mg temazepam tablets and referred to a pyschologist for cbt.Well i can say from my experience temazepam didnt work,even 50mg doses will still only get me 1 hr sleep....my 1st cbt session went well and then it began...i started thinking way to much.got shakey,panicey,sweaty,fidgety and felt thoroughly overwhelmed.By my 3rd session i was a quivering mess but tried as i always did to hide my inner struggles from my family but i knew i was heading down a long dark path that was very scarey to me so i returned to my doctor who has now prescribed me lexapro and valium,all of a sudden i have severe anxiety
...its as if my world has been taken away and im hoping 1 day i will be better or at least in control of my thoughts and feelings....so i will lurk around here and read and learn and seek out what i need to help me in anyway possible...sorry for the dribble and lack of paragraphs but its easier for me to just keep going while i can....
