Hi my name is Melissa and I have health anxiety. It started 13 years ago when my mother was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. She did very well in her treatment and today is healthier than me, I think.
Since then every tiny pain anywhere near my pelvic region is OC and I will be dead in months. I am on Bc pills and get my yearly exams, but the fear is still ever present. I have read stories on Google (God help me) about women who got Oc even on BC pills. This sends me in a tail spin. I know BC pills lower your risk but having a parent with it raises your risk so I am "sure" I'm going to get it any second. I had an abnormal pap smear last September and retested in February and everything came back clear. BUT, here is the kicker. My dr said the abnormal showed Atypical Glandular Cells of Unknown Significance. I was also HPV negative. Of course I trot home and straight to my good friend Dr. Google. Everything and I mean everything I read was devastating. All women who had these "cells" ended up with either uterine or cervical cancer. It went on about how rare these cells are on a pap test and that Dr's should do a uterine biopsy because that was usually where the cancer was. Of course my Dr just did a repeat pap which Web Md made sure to point out was NOT the protocol. So since then I have been in a tail spin I can not pull out of. I just know my dr made a mistake by not doing the so called "correct" testing. My husband called him and told him how bad I was and he reassured my husband there was nothing to worry about and he is going to check again in 6 months. I have no symptoms, other than what the anxiety has brought up. But I just know something sinister is growing in my cervix and/or uterus and will be dead by July.
So theres my story and I'm so glad to have found this site. My anxiety level is through the roof and I can't seem to get it back under control.
