Hi everyone. I'm new here and feeling scared. I know no one is here in a medical capacity, but I would like to air some of my concerns in hopes someone can offer some non-medical advice.
I've been having a lot of problems with my hands recently, mostly my right (dominant) one. I was working out pretty heavily about three weeks ago and when I came home one night, I had some terrible cramps in my left hand. I did all sorts of strength testing, squeezing and gripping a million times. It felt like my thumb was too close to the index finger. I went to the doctor and he said it seemed fine, but by the time I'd gotten home, the tightness had spread to my other hand. Now it's mostly in the right hand. It's like my thumb is rotated the wrong way. I'm a teacher and I spend hours a day with my arm up in the air, writing on the board, and even more time grading papers by hand, but now, holding a pen feels strange. My hand feels weak when I hold a fork, too. I've always typed with only two of my right fingers (my thumb and mouse index finger) and those now feel achy in the joints, tendons, muscles, you name it.
I have a history of hypermobility (double-jointedness) and twitching. I've been to physical therapy before, mostly because of hip and shoulder problems. My hands bend strangely sometimes, but this tight feeling is new to me. I have had the neurological fears before and I have been very scared about the progressive neurological disorders that could cause this. I can't even type the name, one scares me so much.
Around the same time my hands started acting up, I was on the computer, reaching my right mouse hand out, and I feel something pull in my shoulder. Then, my whole shoulder sort of rotated forward. I was afraid it had dislocated (my other shoulder tends to be too loose) but I went to the ER and they said it was fine.
I've been to a neurologist, who said everything seemed fine. She did an NCV/EMG which I'm told was normal. (I didn't see it.) She took an MRI of my spine, which was okay, and did blood work, which also showed nothing. She said it wasn't carpal tunnel and she wasn't concerned about the neurological stuff, but she did tell me to start taking my anti-anxiety meds. She prescribed physical therapy for the shoulder. I've only been once (an issue with my work health insurance), but the therapist said he thinks it is related to my hypermobility.
I have an appointment with a hand doctor this week and I am so, so scared. My fiance doesn't want me to keep talking about this but sometimes I feel like it's all I can think of. I'm scared to go back to the gym. I can't relax. My anti-anxiety medication takes a while to build up in the system and it isn't working after only a couple of weeks.
Has anyone felt similar symptoms? Where do I go from here? Can anxiety cause problems with my thumb? It makes no sense to me that that could be possible. How do I stop thinking about hand when I have to do everything with it?
Thanks for taking the time to look at my post. I know this was lengthy but I'd appreciate any feedback anyone can offer.