That was very whole hearted of you to say. I am taking meds that are atypical, and I'm ticked off because those don't do anything. SSRI medication is the good stuff. that stuff can cause weight gain and other unwanted bullcrap, but you are correct that my bad feelings are not responsive to treatment.
It's a fact that I took Prozac last fall in november, and it ended up fucking me up. I may have had an adverse reaction. It was quite dangerous, I felt suicidal and hostile.
Meds can be dangerous. I'm on remeron and wellbutrin and seroquil. WAY TOO MUCH, right? You seem like a good person through text. lol
Things do improve, they did last year. But it took quite some time for the major depression to dissipate. I still felt like crap over the summer, because in fact, I was not doing much. I had a quiet summer. But it's a fact that I suffer way more in the colder months.
The seasons seem to cause clinical worsening for me. Now it's almost April, if I am correct about having seasonal major depression, it should clear up by april into May. Clinically speaking, i am better off when there is more sun.
Seasonal Affective Disorder sounded so logical to me, So i labeled myself with it without being officially diagnosed. I went through some very traumatic hospital visits that did nothing for me.
It's truly hell....it causes relationship strain in the family and with friends. and I'm always feeling vulnerable to pain.
I don't understand why I suffer or what happens to me in my brain....
I just feel nasty and I don't derive pleasure. and my mind just races.
I need to get off of these meds, they are not doing anything for me.