I have been dealing with anxiety since elementary school. I will turn 22 March 19th, so coming soon. I had no friends in school. When I was 18, I finally visited a doctor that did a series of tests. He asked my questions... It was an all day process. Basically I been diagnosed with Touretts Triad. He told me it's general anxiety, social anxiety, touretts, ocd, ADD, I have and avoidant personality disorder, and bipolar has been tossed around but I was never fully diagnosed. ADHD was tossed around and he said it's a possibilty. The worst for me are panic attacks. They happen everyday unless I take 1mg of xanax 3 times a day. I still have trouble, but I can kind of get out and try. Sex is hard for me in my relationship. I get very anxious sometimes. My girlfriend knows this and she has stuck with me since. We are best friends.
My life has been a rollercoaster. There have been many times I wanted to off myself. Not so much anymore because of meditation and some things I found through that. I feel I simply don't fit here on earth though. The daily anxiety gives me body pains.
I have been to the ER many times breaking out into hives simply from stress. Vomiting, intestinal spasms, panic attacks, (My pulse rate got up to 180) My resting pulse rate is usually 90-120. I have no heart problems. I fear I will one day... I am a hypochondriac. I have been on 20 anti psychotics. All that works for me is benzos. I have seen therapists, and specialists my whole life. I have tried acupunture, and many other natural stuff. None of it really works. The Xanax saved my life. It doesn't make me tired but it does something to rid the panic attacks, because I had them daily.
I just thought I would join here, you all seem so friendly and I could use some friends.
Have a great day everyone.