Ex moved on & im struggling with it

[Squeemy]

Ok so a brief outline to our rocky relationship. Were in a 5 year relationship in which we have a son. We broke up officially 5 years ago however have been still seeing each other off & on and at times trying to work it out for 4 years after that. It was hard because he cheated on me numeriour times, lied & was a heavy drinker. This led to me having panic attacks & anxiety. Despite this (crazy I know) I was still hoping that something would give & our family would be ok. Just 1 month ago he took me away for a romantic weekend & it was nice however since then he hasnt had much (if any) time for our son & has made several promises to see him only to not show up. Frustrated with this I told him that if he didnt want to be a father to just go away & dont bother us anymore then. Which he did but now I have found out that he is dating someone else & was with her on the nights he was supposed to see our son. I have told myself its not worth it & shouldnt bother me but it does. Im really stuggling with him seemingly putting a woman before our son & just dont know what to do from here. I dont have great supports & am doing alot of negative self talk. Trying to stay strong & remind myself that the relationship wasnt great & things will be ok but feel so depressed. Usually with anxiety I cant sit still but now I feel so drained & just want to run away from it all. I know it shouldnt bother me but it does.  Please give me some advice or similar scenario & what you did.... I didnt want to write such a negative draining post but its just how I feel right now 

[tinam7]

Feel for you so very much. Some safety nets that existed in earlier times have been eroded. And the children? Who gives a hoot?

You care about your darling boy and that's what counts the most. This person may just have done you a big favor. I won't go on what I think of him and how I'd let him have it. You deserve much, much better. And there are plenty good guys out there. Yes, indeed, and they will gravitate to you because you are a good person. It is not easy to know others. You will be a better reader of others in the future. Pick up your life, be optimistic, strong, and confident. The best revenge is living well. Wishing you the very best.