Finally taking a stand

[Dsays]

Hi all. I believe I have some mild PTSD from childhood stuff bc I've always dealt with anxiety, for as long as I can remember. I consider myself to be a "nervous" person, although other people wouldn't describe me as such - odd, I know. Those close to me are privy to my antics though, so I know it's not just in my head. Anyway, my anxiety usually strikes hardest at night when I'm lying in bed. It keeps me up a lot of the time. I take melatonin and the doctor prescribed an anti-histamine which does the trick, but it leaves me kind of groggy the next day so I don't take it very often. I was prescribed Xanax in the past but I absolutely hate the stuff and refuse to take any other psych meds. I'm trying to overcome my anxiety through natural means, and I find that going to the gym regularly does the trick. I practice both Yoga and meditation, but they don't always work because my anxious thoughts creep in and I end up getting really frustrated. Especially as of late. I have a lot of changes taking place in my life and I think I might be going through my "quarter-life crisis." A lot of these changes are positive things: happy relationship, moving in with boyfriend, starting classes to begin a new career, etc. Yet my anxiety levels are through the roof!!

I'm not sure if this is common, but my anxiety likes to find channels in which to rear it's ugly head, ie. fear of spiders, fear of sharks, fear of zombies/being eaten alive, fear of earthquakes and now it has turned into a fear of flying - specifically over the ocean. For periods of time, sometimes weeks and sometimes months, my anxiety will channel itself into one of these fears. Recently the fear of flying over the ocean has gotten REALLY bad, to the point where I have mini panic attacks throughout the day as the thought creeps into my mind. The more I try not to think about it, the more I think about it! It keeps me up at night and I've stayed awake for nights and spent days researching plane crashes, survivor stories, how to survive a plane crash, etc. I pray to God and ask that I not experience such a thing in my lifetime DAILY - multiple times a day. I talk to my boyfriend about it constantly and he probably thinks I'm going off the deep end. It's ridiculous how many things trigger the thought - thinking of GOD triggers it, thinking of psychics, seeing a psychic's sign, meditating. AND THEN, I get even more anxiety because I'm afraid that by thinking about the plane crash so often I'm manifesting it. Even though I can logically look at this situation and see that it's impractical, I can't help but believe in this stuff. If anyone has any suggestions for overcoming this fear, or anxiety in general, I welcome the advice/help. I had a CBT session, but the fear/anxiety weren't alleviated. I'm going to continue my sessions and hopefully it works. I'm torturing myself and it's truly exhausting. I don't want to live my life in fear.

Welp, that's me! Thanks for reading.

[Cuchculan]

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