I've always had bad anxiety and lately it has attached itself to the North Korea crisis. Every news source I read says that North Korea is not able to strike the US with a nuke, and that even if they could it would be 0119 so they wouldn't do it. Both of those things make sense but I can't get over the doubt. To me, Kim Jong Un has made good on all his threats thus far, except for nuking people. Isn't that the natural next step? Obviously, nuking the US would be completely suicidal of him, but I have no idea how sane/insane he is. I live in San Francisco and I can't make it through a day without worrying about this. I can barely even work anymore and it's driving my boyfriend nuts. When I ask my friends they're barely worried! It seems like the only people who are worried, other than myself, are super right-wing conspiracy theorists online, but I'm convinced I'm right. My boyfriend won't leave San Francisco with me, and my family wants me to stay in the city too.
On the bright side I spoke to a Marine friend who said he couldn't tell me details but "I have nothing to worry about in terms of long range missiles." That made me feel better for a few hours but now I'm obsessing. my mom says I need to "stay off the internet" but that's absurd. I deserve to read the news just like anyone else, and frankly I'm a little insulted that my mom isn't worried about me dying. My brother is a political expert and also thinks my worries are overblown.
Meanwhile, I'm really regretting voting for Obama because I don't have any faith in our missile defense system regardless of what the govt has said lately.